Just a Bump in the Road

So here's an update on the last few weeks... If you remember, back on Thanksgiving I decided to switch to juicing. That's still the case. We go up to Orem and Spanish Fork once a week to buy produce. We go to WinCo, Costco, and Good Earth to buy our produce. We go to three different places because we're trying to get the healthiest food we can. Each place carries some organic version of the fruits and vegetables we need, so we spread things around. It takes about 5 hours each round trip to get everything we need. It's not too bad. Every other week we have to exchange the kids in Payson with their dad, so we just get our shopping done then. The other weeks we go up on the weekend or Kim will go up on a week day that she has off. Along with the juicing, I still have some potatoes and toast in the evenings to help me with food. The juicing is still going well, but we are having to make some changes. We've also made some other changes to the daily protocol. For a wh...

It's been a little while, once again. It's been a busy time of year with the holidays and that's made it a little difficult for me to find the time and energy to post on here. However, I've had some thoughts stewing around in my mind and I thought I'd share my thoughts on perspective today. Now that Christmas is over...I finally have time. And thank heavens Christmas is over, right?! Christmas just isn't what it used to be. Christmas is filled with buying presents, running gifts, running to parties all over the place, all sorts of cooking...it's just too much and the season simply isn't enjoyable anymore. Well... Not in my opinion. I absolutely love Christmas and the season. However, I can't tell you how many times I heard a conversation go something like this in December... Person #1: "Are you ready for Christmas?" Person #2: "Uh yeah...ready for it to be over." Person #1: "Tell me about it." Let me pose this ques...

After Ryan's cancer diagnosis, I have progressively become more protective of him.  I know that if he pushes too hard, or if he were to slip and fall, that his recovery would lessen.  I want to give him the absolute best shot ever, and for that reason I have restricted him from climbing in trees and on the roof. For many years now, it has been Ryan's tradition to put lights on the house Thanksgiving day.  Well, this Thanksgiving, time and energy were lacking for all of us and the lights, well.....just didn't get done :( Two weeks before Christmas, I recognized that I was trying to protect Ryan physically, but I really wasn't taking very good care of his heart.  He genuinely was affected by having no lights up and said "It just doesn't feel like Christmas".....  I knew I needed to do something quickly, because we were running out of time. Very rarely, will I ask for help, but I this time I did.  I needed help, for Ryan.  I called some trust...

It's been a while since I've posted. I've never really been good at keeping a journal... I guess this would be why. Consistency has always been a struggle for me. I'll see if I can improve. It's been a few weeks since I've posted and a fair bit has happened over the course of that time. The cancer has spread quite a bit. Immediately following my PET scan, I was told I had four additional tumors. I was able to feel one of them in my upper left chest, but that was it. I had some discomfort and pain in my left arm from the tumor in my bone, but that was about it as far as anything noticeable. I mentioned in another post that I'd had a bump pop up on my back that I felt was a lymph node. It's still there...so who knows. It may or may not be. I still think it is. A similar bump popped up on the back of my left leg. It feels similar to the one on my back. Big, round, and movable. However, there have been several other bumps pop up that I believe are cancer...